This is just for you :)

Today we didn't talk to each other and i just don't dare to talk to you anymore and the last message i sent you i also promised i wouldn't talk to you anymore cause you said it out Stop Talking To You. I know you're speechless and i am too that's also one of the reason i didn't talk to you.I know i should just forget you now and yea i am finding a way to forget you but it's really hard you always ask me to forget you and i am trying too you always said don't love you too much cause you're not worth and it will only hurt me but from what i think you're the only one who worth for me to wait for who worth for my tears who worth of everything. I am regretted that i ever sent the message asked us to end it here, WHY?! why everything is sweet and everything is good and i wanna say end it here? why babe why? I just hope you can give me a chance but you told me i can try to do anything but couple no and that's also the time my heart cracked and i can understand how you feel when i said end it here. I know such a bimbo what i did was all wrong. I don't know why i keep on repeating this when i am not changing myself. i only talk but i am not changing. Why?! Babe, i know i had told you this but i just keep on saying. I am happy and touched about happened Saturday. Your leg is warm and your leg had be my boaster that day, your skinny body be my i dunno what but when i hugging you i feel that nothing i can worry about cause that's you beside me. All the kisses that you gave me are all sweeter than all the sweet. Your face, your handsome face when took out your spec and lied on your bed it looked so handsome and funny :) i am really happy and wanna cry out just because of all your swetness and what you did to me ;D Babe, thanks for holding my hand thanks for stepping into my life and make my life become so great :) you walked out from you house walked for so far to look for me and walked out with me and go back yourself ): but yea you sms me when you were back home casuse i asked you to :) but you told me you went back home and sms me immediately cause you really miss me ;) how sweet are you babe? What you had did to me no one can ever do it. Even others did it to me it's just nothing for me but if it's you yea i will be crying in front of you and i will give you a tight hug and kiss you as long as i can ;) I love the last hug and kiss that babe give it to me. I don't know why but i just love it. It's like babe's lips covered my lips and kiss it and hug me so tightly. Babe tell me what can i do to make you even more happy? Yesterday i talked to doraemon yea he asked me the same question he asked me to accept him but i just don't understand why even if he is good but for me no matter how much things that you did to me no matter how many times i had hurt how many time you asked me to forget you but babe i tell you i just can't i am sorry to fall in love to you i am sorry for everything. Sorry cant seem to change anything, sorry cant make my babe to be happy, sorry can tell my dear don't get mad, don't be angry and don't be annoyed. Babe are the one who made me happy all this while and sad too babe :) but babe i will really be leaving, before that i really don't wanna leave because of you but just because of my word End It Here and everything spoiled. I just wish i am beside you now. Yea i still remember when you're playing the comp and i lied on your leg and you hug me too :) you touched my hair and i played your finger and i play with your soft face and you asked me you wan play piano isit? :) yes how i hope your face are piano so that i could play you everyday? Actually i should be going to my leg appointment but i didn't, the last day dy i should be there taking my medicine and everything but i just don't feel like going cause without you it will be more pain. Yea, as what you said, and me also i am finding someone who is better than you and go with him but you know what? i can't find any even doraemon the perfect one he don't seem good to me at all he's just nothing to me. How i wish i can just say yes to him now but i can't. You kissed chin to nose to forehead, babe you just cant get off from my mind. How i wish you can be mine once again but you had enough like seriously ): i shouldn't have do anything that hurt you sorry ): that's all i can say babe nothing at all ): how i hope i can call you now and play just the way you are for you but you wont answer my call. ): babe sorry ): and thanks a lot :) <3 iloveyou. This i can only keep in my mind. iloveyou iloveyou. <3 feel like kissing you and hugging you now just to make you smile :) rawr bye bloggie i don't think i will have chance to blog next time will be very busy studying and even skype, msn ): hmm ): i think it will be the last day for me today ): </3 bye babe ): <3

This is to all my beloved friends

Have been a long time i didn't update this blog, yes as what i said this post is for all my friends :) Oh wait this one is for my beloved sister. She asked me who's doraemon and i don't wanna tell her then she used her phone to check the number oh shit she know who's that ): i hope she wont tell anyone ): Ya, now is my all about my friends. All my friends you guys told me you all love me cause i am a good friend, i can tell you guys i am not like seriously ): i feel that i am selfish, cause i am gonna leave without telling you guys. What a friend am i? I keep on saying i want to leave but yea at last i choosed not too. But, i am sorry this time is really i am leaving ): i just cant keep on staying here and make problems or even make people angry. You guys told me that i am not making problems to you guys i am just making happiness to you guy's life but i am sorry i cant accept that's the truth maybe for you guys yea i am making happiness to you all but for me its not. it's two different thing. Like just now how can i ever sent a message to my friend and tell him that we are not friend anymore? This can show that i am really now a good friend. I felt so sorry for him how can i ever say that to my friend especially is him? What i cant say is nothing i can't be his friend cause like i don't believe him. how can i? i had make a biggest mistake like seriously i shouldn't ): i think there shouldn't be any guy who liked me before. Just now i said happy birthday to one of my bro, ei siang and he asked me do you know that i still like you? i said i don't know cause i just feel so sad that why that's still people who liking me now? I got a little bit missed last year, with all my friends like yi sheng, sean, ming han,chia yi,en you,samuel. yea all the laughter around and we play around and yea talk to each other. Now i didn't even talk to sean ): hmm ming han,chia yi they all also seldom ): and en you he is in my class but i didn't talk to him ): what a friend am i? but yea this i am same class with tien chye once again :) he is my best bro he is the one who comfort me when i am having problem even he said he don't know what to say but just the cheer up, chill and some nonese! :) that's dy enough :) i am happy to have this best bro :D <3 i love you bro :) and joey! my jojo :) haha she always say why i hold her hand :) hah cause i like it, it seem like i am nearer to you :) yea all my friends i love you guys cause you guys like turst me a lot and you guys told me all your secret don't care who you are but yea you guys tell me every secret. I am so proud of myself that you guys trust me a lot! but i am seriously cant be the friend that you guys should trust :( i am so sorry to kenneth cause i ever say that SIGH i can do anything dy ): i am a failure ): hmm if kenneth ever see this hmm he will say i am negative :) hmm yea tommy is also one of my bro but he is not as good as tien chye!): he don't give me sweet he give to his girlfriend !): bad boy :)  hmm joey ILOVEYOU! for sharing all the secrets to only me ;) haha proud to know that :) ivy ILOVEYOUTOO! thanks for being my caring friends and pui yin too! ;D all my friends i hope you guys just wont be disappointed when you guys know i left. i will skype with you guys whenevr you all need me evem if its midnight i will wake up amd skype with you guys! you guys have really make my life :) without you guys i wouldn't have so happy like now and thank you kenneth for making me so happy for 7 months even we have go through all the pains and break ups. From what i think the god want us to be together but we are really cant anymore. Still thanks for all the caring and everything skype with at night yea that's really enough :) but what i did today was i didn't trust you and i had made a biggest mistake ): ihateit! ): sorry kenneth, i know you wont talk to me anymore i am really fail for doing that! ): as what i said regret is too late so i can only stop talking to him stop making him to be mad like seriously ): SORRY KENNETH!:(  yea again for another person yeow yeu gin! hmm i didn't know i will talk about him but today i am here to say sorry to him for ignoring his message all the while he sent me so many messages i didn't even reply once. hmm he didn't get mad he still kepp on sending thanks friend for doing that i don't need to wate credit cause you know i wont reply. charis! she is being my longest friend like seriously! :( i just received a message that my ting hong bro sent to me he asked me who i like now i said no one then he said how about kenneth then i told him we broke then he was like oh my god why?! you two looked match together and you two are so sweet. hmm what to do ting hong? we wont have the chance anymore :) everybody just say like that but hmm it cant change anything ;) oh yea talk about ting hong! :) we still contact each other :) he's the bro that i will sgare secret with :) hmm until now he still share secret with me and he only share with me :D what a bro i have ? :) all my friends just said i am a believable,lovable friend but i i know i am not. AND yea all my friends in my class scared of me when i am angry they said i looked scaring and when i am sad or emo i looked more scary ;) really? haha i don't know but everyone say it :) so when i got a little bit moody they will not say anything to me just make me laugh so what friends i and having ? ;D awesome they all really great like dunno what! :D hmm gonna go lunch with all my sis and bro on friday WEEHEE exam over! :) hmm it will be the last time i am going out with them hmm gonna change to my pe shirt ehehe :) and then turn to joey's house then charis's house and second day to sunway :) yeah! ;D oh yea doraemon! haven talk about doraemon yet! hmm he is @#$%^&* he sent me 12 messages today and after i came out from the hall and on my phone only i saw :) haha and i saw him walking with his friends and when he passed by me he said something to me and he scared his friends hear so he said it in a soft way :) i didn't know he will do that like seriously :) hmm it's enough for him :) ALRIGHT GONNA GO STUDY NOW I HAD WROTE A VERY LONG ONE AND I HAD WRITE THIS FOR 2 HOURS :) HMM I LOVE IVY TOMMY JOEY TIEN CHYE DORAEMON ALL MY FRIENDS AND KENNETH :D thanks for being so good to my life and hope you guys don't be disappounted after you guys know that i left. forgive my selfishness :( Bye bloggie <3

How's my day?

Hmm what to say about my day today? It's not really fun or even laugh a lot.. It have been a very normal day today but it was quite fun during last three lessons at cookery room ;) i cooked the meehun? Oh my god it tasted so nice haha :) it's all better than my friends one but they don't think so ); hmm nothing much to talk about today. I am quite sad today but don't know why? Just got a sad feelings hmm ); What happened to me today? just cant express out my feelings D; Oh no it don't feel good ); alright i need comfort now! ): oh right tomorrow last lesson is computer ): no way man have to bring bag to there oh my god ): no coco hmm ): so tired! that's all for today ;D bye

Oh no so tired! D;

Feel so sad, but i cant express out the feelings ):

Studying for tomorrow sejarah quiz ): ARGH

Exam coming! Study Study i wanna get better results!

This is what i did! </3

Today was a nice day! ;D 9/5/2011

Today was a nice day and all my awesome friends you make my day like seriously. I had laughed in class like seriously a lot and i talked to all my friends they are really caring! Tien Chye pui yin joey, you guys are like Ftw i love you all! i know i make you all disappointed about the 7th of june and i can only say guys i am sorry but i am deciding now! Cause you guys know i will be suffering there and i am scared of that so i am thinking of it now ;D hmm i just had my cold shower, the whether is so hot hot hot and i had my delicious dinner cooked by my grandmum and today's foods were like all my favourite foods ;P Thanks grandma ;D and and and THANKS TO MY AWESOME DADDY, he brough me a new red angry bird Iphone cover and a new screen protector. Oh my god he's so so so good, dad dad dad! ;) hmm and i am talking to my beloved friend ;) i missed him so much and he said him too! ;D Haha everything was like solved and yesterday i had talked to kenneth but he don't seem to forgive me but i know i don't hate him. ;D he will always be the one i had loved and my friend ;) even he hate me or angry me but i don't care as long as i don't ;) Hmm everything seem going fine soon and i guess i am very super fne too hah ;) Oh yea i told kenneth about the sms thingy but i don't noe whether he believe or not but as long as i know its the truth. At first i checked his number a lot a lot a lot of times and even called him to hear his sounds yea is him i didn't know he will message me as everyone know it's impossible too ;) hmm he's quite a good friend? ;) haha as well he wont be a longer friend too? hmm oh well i had wrote very long one today? Am i awesome? yea i know i am very! Oh thats all for today ;D I love pui yin,joey,ivy,rachel,tommy,tien chye and all my friends! ;D they are awesome shit!  okay time to study now yo ;) Oh one more i am so jealous of ting hong! he just told me smth sweet about him and his girlfriend! haha so sweet cover eye some more ;) hug her dad! haha ;) needa someone to hug me now too oh my god! ;) Oh my god stop telling me all the sweet stuffs that you guys gonna do D;

Dad brough this for me :) <3

i wan a tightly huggies <3

i love all my awesome friends

Sun why are you being so hot?

Oh no they are so sweet! like ting hong and the girlfriend aww <3

i am being crazy like this in class! :)

Foods foods foods ;D

What a day? ):

Today is Sunday and it's suppose to be a Mother's day and a family day,but why are we staying at home? That's because exam is coming so we are preparing our exam! ): I'm sure that my results for mid year will be worse than montly test! ): Montly test that's him accompanying me to study but mid year exam i have to study myself and alone. No one will ask me to study with him ): Oh right Happy Mother's Day! ;D Am i suppose to start my work now? or should i just lie on my bed and think? The most important is am i missing him right now? Why didn't i ping chat him? am i really missing him? How is he going on? Yea as what i know he will be normal like last time so he is happy. Why am i worrying about him? It don't seem to change anything of this break. So i should have forget everything but how? Did he enjoy at Genting?Oh no stop it! Study now please and i haven finish my work yet ): i felt like without him i will keep on delaying my work oh crap change the habit please ): Bye bloggie

<3

I miss him a lot ): I am so stress without him </3

Start work now plese ): Exam is coming ): CANNOT THINK OF ANYTHING NOW! D;

I should be studying now forget about him, exam exam exam. Don't care about him! and i need to release all my stress! come on babe start work now D; Go go go! after exam i will be fine so i can leave without any problems and leave without missing him! Come on!

okay! that's all for today gonna message desk and wait for him to study together! i still have a caring friend! Oh yea tien chye too ;D

The feelings make me more worst

Now i should just be doing my works, i have my kumon, geography, maths, science and my piano theory. i should be doing now since tomorrow is mother's day, dad may be going out. i am watching a drama and the people just hug the girlfriend from the back like how you did to me everytime. i just missed the way you carry me up i know i am heavy but you don't care it <3 i wouldn't get that again rite? you're so sweet, the sweet messages you sent me every morning. It make my day, now you are on the way going to Genting for celebrating Mother's day with all your uncle,aunty and siblings i think. This time may be different the last time you went to malacca you sent me a very long and sweet messages before you go, but this time you aizzz.....our love is like a song, & it's impossible for me to forget it. <3 START WORK NOW TEO XIN YEE!!! 

i wanna be like her <3

i am sad! ): gonna cry soon ):

we haven take enough photo yet! ): 

This stitch that you gave me gonna accompany me study now! <3

Gonna hug it tightly! <3

Start work now! D;

Hi hey everyone (:

This is my 4th or 3rd blogger i think :) i keep on forgetting the password and the email address :) this will be the last blogger (: today was such a boring day ): sisters came back and went out again ): i am alone at home now ): skyping with chia yi now <3 kinda sad no couldn't skype with boyfriend cause  have no boyfriend now and cannot see sweet messages anymore ): hmm thats all for now ;D will update later on at night :)